I wake up in the middle of the night
In need
Looking for a way to find a separation
To not belong
To unite in myself
Alone
With no spectators no one at the side
Wanting milk touch proximity
Running away just to be
To belong
To write what’s
In my mind
On it
Only
How not to light the light
How to hide
How not to tell
How survive
In need
When
The only belonging
Is in a lonely mind
Precious
Only
Furiously longing
Peacefully wanting
Go back to sleep — I scold myself
Run back, why would you
Want your lack of presence to be discovered
Why would you hide
Why would you like to tell
Why can’t you just be
Just sleep
Just like others
Just together
Just continues
I can’t
I am in need
As much as needed
As much as not wanting to escape in any way
As much as content and calm
As much as with
As much as whole
Unitedly
In need.
